The Rest Is Still Unwritten
As I prepare to cross the stage to receive my Masters degree in 2 days, I find myself being so reflective on almost every aspect of my life. There are many roads that one can travel and all roads can lead to greatness. What I have learned about life is that no matter the cards you're dealt, you have the ability to change the hand. Just because you were born into poverty; you don't have to stay poor. When I say poor I mean poor in finances, mentality, health and so much more. Do I feel the hand I was dealt sucked? Yes. Did I allow the hand to ruin my life? Absolutely not! Well not completely. What I have learned about myself is that even though I pushed and persevered, I have allowed some of those cards to keep me from reaching my fullest potential. I have to admit this in order to take my life back and truly be made whole.
I allowed my realities to weigh so heavy on me that sometimes, I didn't even believe I could really be successful. There were times when I had enormous doubt. Times when I thought to myself, who are you kidding? You can't do this. You lack the support and drive. Look where you live. Look who you live with. I however, managed to make it on through. In this season I am learning to truly release my past and embrace my future. In this season, I am learning to forgive, FOR REAL! I have not reached my full potential because there are some things weighing me down and some people I have allowed to keep me from greatness.
Freeing myself from people and the roles I thought they should play and the things I thought they should do, has not been easy. I mean, you grow up and you learn that parents are supposed to be like this and they are supposed to do that, and when they don't do any of those things, you're left feeling all kinds of neglected and unloved. The same applies to friends and family. You expect certain things from them, but that's just not how life works. People are imperfect and so are you. This doesnt mean it's okay to suck as a person, parent, friend, or family member. This does mean that you won't always get the best parts of people.
My life has been so different because God has really looked out for a sista. I mean showing up in ways that others haven't had the privilege to experience. Every step of the way and I do mean every step, he intricately placed people along my journey to love me, to nurture me, to discipline me, to support me, and to show me that he had my back.
I'm learning to appreciate the life God gave me and not the life I thought I was supposed to have. I cannot continue to dwell on what I did not have, I can only be thankful for what I do. I am blessed beyond measure and so I am choosing to focus on the love and support I have. I'm freeing myself and so should you. What ever that thing is you find yourself holding on to, let go and allow your future to set sail. I realize this won't happen over night but whom the son sets free, is free indeed.
We are free..... 🕊
To myself: You go girl! 🎓🎓🤓💜
To watch my ceremony live, just click on Graduation 2018 below!!!